Welcome to the Journey

     This is easily the seventh blog I’ve begun, and there is a very painful chance that I will give up on it by the end of the week. But my approach to this blog is different than it ever has been before.

     I’ve tried journal blogs, but I just couldn’t get past the initial “telling strangers about my feelings” aspect. I’m not a very emotional person anyways, so I don’t know why I thought a blog where I diary my every thought was something I needed. All in all, I only found it awkward, and it turned into a chore after my second post. (I think I started two or three more of this kind of blog, never making it past the third post.)

Then I tried a design blog, for back in the day, I was a graphics design major, and I thought an academic blog was something that would benefit me. (As I am still “officially” a graphics design major, one of my academic blogs is still on the web, at dessigns.wordpress.com. If you check it out - I know, the site made it sound like I wanted that more than anything, but that’s before my quest for reality began.)

     And then, there was that once where I’d created a blog just because my friend had asked me to, but that’s silly, and we won’t go there.

     These are all beside the point. My point in telling you my rough blogging history is this: I don’t enjoy blogging my feelings, and I don’t enjoy feeling like I have a responsibility to my blog. So, this is a blog that will work for me and you.

     Bah, well, you see, for you to know why you can benefit from this blog, I have even more of my completely irrelevant life to speak of.

     I grew up in a very religious family, and as is the case with many families, I was so accustomed to the lifestyle and the teachings, having never known anything else, that I never questioned “the faith.” Then, as all good kids tend to do (however, I am not generalizing, many good kids do not do this), I went away to college. Being away from those who constantly influenced me quickly set my mind up to think on its own, and I quickly began to question.

     The moment I began to question started with stumbleupon.com (a fantastic site, really check it out if you haven’t.) I stumbled upon the following (enlargement recommended):

     This is a list of logical fallacies, or flawed logic commonly used in arguments. The breaking point for me was realizing that my religion was based on a good amount of them. (No offense meant to those God-fearin’ folk out there. But if these fallacies are all very good and well if they apply to political and physical matters, why do the rules change for religion? Simply put, they don’t, and religion is unfortunately based on fallacies.)

    However, you don’t know who I am and I don’t aim to keep anything from you, so I will tell you the second view-changing event that occurred. One day, as college life is rumored to go, I was offered a mystical, magical mushroom, and I ate that mystical, magical mushroom, and it forever changed my way of thinking. For, after veering away from my base religion, who’d have known where I would have gone? I like to think I would have found my way to this spiritual place anyway, but without the initial boost from the psychedelic drugs, mayhaps I became a druid or a Wiccan (both of which I find fascinating, but simply not for me.) I am not recommending drugs to the masses – you do not need them. However, I used them and they brought me to a wonderful place of what my first spiritual guide called “isness.” I felt a fantastic sense of “oneness” and “being” and I fell in love with the strong spiritual feelings. My wonderful first spiritual guide made sure to tell me that I could again discover that presence and wonder without the help of drugs, and so I began my quest.

     In ways, this affected my decision to change my major, for my life rather became a quest for truth in every sense. My schooling and spirituality both reflected the strong change in my life; for I realized quite deeply that I would much rather spend my career pursuing the secrets of the cosmos than designing websites for this consumerism nation.

     And, indeed, this brings us quite sufficiently up to speed. I’m learning a lot at this stage in my life. This blog, therefore, is not to will strangers to read about my complaints and problems – no one likes a whiner – but to teach. I am not teacher, but I do make plenty of mistakes, and that’s what you can learn from. I don’t have much to teach from the perspective of knowledge, for I’m eighteen years old, and that’s hardly a handful of knowledge that I have to share. But I know that my postings can help others to learn at my pace at the very least, for my only intent is to share things that I think you’d like to know.

So, welcome to the quest for reality, friend!

Just a few more things to say.

1.       I call this blog The Secret Life of Science only because those in my hometown do not know of my new lifestyle. Yes, I know, I sound like a hypocrite right off the bat, for truth is very important to me. However, telling your friends and family a sentence that will cause them to believe you’re hellbound is not easy, and I simply haven’t gotten there yet. In time, I know I have to come clean, for I’d like every part of my life to brim with honesty. In time.

2.       The title “Dr. Jaclyn” is only ironic and, yes, wishful thinking. Perhaps one day I can claim a doctorate, but for now, I am just a wee, broke college student who appreciates the wonders of marijuana. (I told you I’d keep nothing from you. I find that my ganja does a good job of opening the mind to spiritual ideas.) So, not a doctor yet.

3.       I’m not going to spout nonsense for the sake of more readers, so I’ll be honest. The day I did shrooms was one of the most wonderful days I’ve ever had, and I do not regret it. Furthermore, I fully plans to use those magic mushrooms again. HOWEVER (and this is a statement that demanded all caps), I do not promote the abuse of drugs! Everything in moderation, as they say. Furthermore, mind-opening drugs (just like drugs of any kind) are not good for you, no matter what you hear. It is up to you whether the mental and spiritual benefits will outweigh the potential physical damage. Just do your research wisely, folks. Finally, there are a good many mind-opening psychedelic drugs out there, but allow me to simply warn you – acid (LSD) is a different pill to swallow entirely (and not one I’d personally take to expand my consciousness.) Start small. Be smart. Welcome to the psychedelic journey.